Seriously: What is happening? EVERYTHING (yes I’m yelling) is changing!
I’ve always thought mid-life crisis to be a myth, and that it was only for you men. This has been stirring in me for about a year, however it really began unfolding about three months ago. Everything is changing. I think they call it a crisis, for the mere fact of the concession that is put in motion. The crisis comes when we fight the progressive change.
Oh how I would love to be one to just flow with it. I read an article last night, the steps of mid-life crisis. Yes, they really have that? I’m so laughing right now, really you can find anything on google! Anyway.
#1 YOU’RE LOOSING WEIGHT OR GAINING WEIGHT. = sadly it is the latter that is evident in my Crisis, Ugh!
#2 YOU’RE APATHETIC = check, and further down the list… YOU’RE BORED. again check.
# 3 YOU’RE EXPERIENCING UNUSUAL PHYSICAL PAIN. Yup, check. This part has been for some time now. Many test with yet no real answers. Why does the Dr. not simply say: “Oh your simply dealing with a mid-life crisis”? Laughing again. Real stuff, just saying.
# 4 YOU FEEL YOU’RE SLOWLY LOOSING YOUR MIND. Check Thinking how mundane a life wasted in the pursuit of selfish gain. Ecclesiastes 2: “My heart took delight in all my labor, and this was the reward for all my toil. Yet when I surveyed all that my hands had done and what I had toiled to achieve, everything was meaningless, a chasing after the wind; nothing was gained under the sun”
# 5 YOU CAN’T SLEEP. I can check this one, but only in moments. I like my sleep, Okay! I think this is listed as it is that wandering mind that keeps the sand man at bay.
# 6 YOU HAVE AN OVERWHELMING SENSE OF LOSS. Yes I can also check here, but with explanation. I have an overwhelming sense of a loss of time; “time wasted.” What truly have I done with my life?
# 7 YOU’RE MAKING RASH DECISIONS. “Oh man, check and double check, left and right. ” In my defense, it is like the swinging pendulum, that quickly swings back into a centered position.
# 8 YOU’RE ASKING DEEP, PONDERING QUESTIONS. Yes, and yes. All questions now are deep and pondering.
However, as I titled this, Mid-Life Crisis “THE AWAKENING.” It is because my beliefs about my place in the world and what I want to achieve are expanding verses completely changing. It is not a point of regret for lost years of my youth, but a reevaluating of what is in-front of me. Looking deeply at all I held to be true, simply because of what everyone else told me.
Looking deeper consist of the very evidences I know to be true. The depths of my pondering go beyond my own ideas. I liken it to a Butterfly, who has just emerged.
Psalm 34:13 Lead me in thy truth, and teach me:
for thou art the God of my salvation;
on thee do I wait all the day.
Psalm 119:30 I have chosen the way of truth:
thy judgments have I laid before me
Proverbs 30:5 Every word of God is pure:
he is a shield unto them that put their trust in him.
Yes there is a Great Awakening at work here; EVERYTHING is EXPANDING, and I believe it will be glorious.